can handle a lot of stress and am an expert multi-tasker. And I have a
freaky memory in that I can juggle a lot of detailed information inside my
head. But when I finally do get stressed out, it’s not pretty at
all. You will probably never encounter someone as negative and pessimistic
as I can get. I know the future, I know everything, and it is only bad.
But somehow, probably because I’m baptized and stuff, surprising things happen
in the midst of it. Just when I’m at the end of my rope, barely remaining
sane, I get a completely random call from someone who has never called me.
Just to tell me they’re thinking of me and are praying for me and thought I
could use a little encouragement. Or I get an email out of the blue from
someone I haven’t talked to in months…asking if I need help with something
(and I do, and had no idea until that moment just how I was going to delegate
some of the load).
The Lord is cool like that. Surprising us with just the right gifts at
just the right time, when we didn’t even realize we had been asking for them and
had even given up our own hope that anything could possibly even improve.
And then BAM. Forced to be hopeful again. (See? I told you I
could be negative!)
"Likewise the Spirit helps us in our
weakness. For we do not know what to pray for as we ought, but the Spirit
himself intercedes for us with groanings too
deep for words."